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I don't think, you can survive !! You will definitely search for another drop of water when you loss your jar of water...
Well, me !! Girl...for the decades I have been living in the mountain of solitude ! You come..you leave..you think it really matters to me !!? I have been used to different kinds of negligence, different days of solitude, Different frustrated night hours, different bloody tears, moans and roars... I finally self declared that I'm a masochist !  Lol...now everything happening in my life is just a LOL !! Everything !! I mean everything !! Finally I studied to constrain myself in my own cocoon..The art of getting diminished from the outer world. I suffocate myself by pushing those people away who actually care me a lot ! Look at my self sadism ! I started to enjoy that pain ! I do cry a lot...cry over & over again. I don't need you by my side. I know one day you won't be there with me. You actually need me to need you ! Nothing unconditional.. It's more okay for me to cry over what I did to you than what you did to me.. I don't wanna be anybody's tool anymore. I am neither your tool of happiness nor your melancholy. You should be afraid of me !! You really should be !! Cause I exist without being existed !!

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